Please note the date of my last blog, and please note the topic.
Wednesday, May 27, 2009
Neptune...consider the retrograde on May 28.
When I think of Neptune, I smile because of the dimension, this planet adds in our lives.
I smile? Have I lost my mind?
Little did I have a clue that I was going to get the Neptunian clobber of a life time. Perhaps, that is an exaggeration. Let's try; the strongest Neptunian hit I have every experienced.
Somehow, stupid me, felt somewhat immune to these transits at my wizen age. Neptune rarely hits me hard.. Wrong again. Astrology has a way of ringing the door bell, whenever we make those type of assumptions. It broke down my front door literally and figuratively.
By last night, I was about to contact Elsa, of Elsa, Elsa and Astro Dispatch to scream help. Elsa and I see eye to eye in areas many people, past astrologers do not. We can talk without mincing words. I didn't call rather...
In my Nepotunian haze, I poured a glass of wine, and thought: These events only have the attachment I put on them and nothing more. Neptune hits again in my thinking.
To preface what happened, and certainly i will not reveal all :> , I need to explain that I have a predominant Neptune in my chart. It is in mutual reception with my venus in my career house, lives in my Fifth House and is part of a Yod (Finger of God .translation: anything that can happen will!..forgive me-it is part of our life lessons learning how to adjust to not necessarily congruent energy).
On May 27, the day of the last blog, my world felt perfect. Between us guys that usually spells trouble.
On May 28, my site got hacked unknown to me. Neptune went retrograde.
On May 29, I started to get client emails to the effect..they could not get into my site.."what did you do?" I heard about a Trojan worm. Then the rogue site message- I kept sending them on to my webmaster, knowing full well I am a novice in this area.
That same day, I went out to several servers and put in my name..to find out...I was not only a ghost site, but also with shadow somethings...and be aware of entry, rogue ...
I am an Aquarian. The words ghost, rogue and shadow do not displease me. I like the mystical mischievous connotations....I sat there in a Neptunian haze, glossing over all this and dreamily thought: I have been called worse.
Then in a moment of lightening clarity, I thought OMG!!!! I sent what I found to my webmaster who of course is another Aquarian and cannot find out what is wrong.
May 31, in the late day, the webmaster declares: you have been hacked.
Dreamily I ask: why? Then smacked by reality, I think: why, you ask why? who cares? get it handled,. She assured me that it was handled, but remember she too is an Aquarian not seeing straight either , helped along by Neptune and his friends..
Meanwhile my personal life takes twists and turns that no one could of foreseen, and my friends, Neptune is in the sign of friendship, conjuncting Jupiter (a lot of) with chiron (healing). ..decide to more or less move in with me to protect me and make sure nothing gets more out of control in my personal life. (and believe me events there were stunning, coming in from left field)
A week later,I love them dearly, but my home is now tipsy turvy, and I am behind the ape ball with work, and when they leave late Saturday night, June 6 , I thank them profoundly for everything, explaining I have major deadlines, so please, I need to work Sunday and perhaps forever to make them.
It was a grand old time with my friends, sponsored by Neptune. The party was so good, they re-appeared, the following day, and then the following day etc. I am still one week and 2 days later, cleaning.
After I barely made my deadlines late Monday, I realized something else. I had not had email off my site since I was hacked. OH DEAR. genius here says: this is trouble.
I try to contact my server. I have been chasing them around for awhile, trying to get a bill (also Neptune here) and low and behold the Neptunian fog subsides, and they appear. Thank Goodness. I see help..
Over 12,000 html coding errors, etc,,email issues beyond the imagination....
Clients and once more friends helped. They emailed me from my site. ..if they could. but Yahoo people could not. This realization came yesterday with Jupiter going Retrograde, one of Neptune's pals.
We are still correcting. .
I have had some splashing side effects too. The funniest is when doing a search for my site in Yahoo, this past Saturday, Sunday and today you find me, but oh oh...oils for enhancement---- and items for enlarging....(use your imagination),. Pray Neptune makes that vanish. I am doing my best to help here.
Amplify that story about 4 times, and you have my life for the last 2 weeks.
Still no email..
I can be reached at JacquelineBigar@aol.com.
I will pop in a phone number on this blog Thursday after installation.
Long term, I need to rethink Neptune, how to harness its energy, and reframe much like the discussion in my blogs of the last six months about Venus, and Pluto.
At the moment, I am detaching, and reframing.
The problem lies there I suddenly becomes so neptunian....(detachment is supposedly the answer with Neptune....)
Ah, My thoughts are meaningless and I only draw what I want from these situations....our past colors our present, so we cannot now see the now....